This was one of the best moments I've had at a wedding, as simple as it was. The flower girls just decided to go for it. They giggled together and with a burst of adrenaline started running down the aisle in a full sprint. The crowd started laughing and I wondered if anyone or everyone was thinking and feeling my same emotions as we witnessed this joyful and unplanned dash or escape from the pressure of petal tossing.
When's the last time you've done something spontaneous? I definitely wish I had more of a carefree outlook towards life. I wish I had the guts to grab my pal and hop on a plane, or get in the car and drive 2,000 miles to who knows where. Spontaniety has never been my strong suite. I'm careful, I plan, I make pro/con lists, I do my research, while relying on structure to help me complete my tasks since my artist brain doesn't naturally lend itself to organization. I hold on to the what if's, always wanting to be responsible and being fearful of letting people down. Don't get me wrong, I do enjoy the responsibilty jacket that I wear so often, it's a part of me and I'm proud of that fact that I'm reliable, and can be counted on when it matters and even when it doesn't, but sometimes, much of the time, I wish I could just let it go, take off the heavy coat of "mulling over the consequences of my actions" and just take a risk. I want that rush of adrenaline, I want to feel my hair blowing in the wind as I take a chance. I know I'll get there one day, I plan on it.
P.S. I may or may not have been listening to Frou Frou's "Let Go" while writing this :)